Confused

Well i don't really know what to say but i felt god pulling my to this blog to write something but i have no idea what.I just got back from a leadership weekend to supposedly learn how to stand up for god and be an evangelist to all the young people.And yes it did help me in some ways but it also confused me. Because for the past several month I've been trying to maintain my spiritual walk while trying to talk to other people about it at the same time , while also juggling school friends who don't look out for my best interest but are good guys who are lost. I feel like god lead me to them for a reason. Wanting to lead them and then go on with them to change the world as just a group of guys trying to chase god. But it turns out a lot harder to try and get some one to maintain in there walk when as their leader not being any better than they were before I met them so in that since kind of dragging them back down and then we just fall into a group of punks that do stupid stuff and get in trouble.So I've got to think to my self hey how can i maintain my walk while also trying to lead as a good example for them. I guess what I'm saying is i need to step up and be a mighty man of god and quit sanding back when i see one of my friends messing up. Hold them accountable so maybe they will follow my example and hold me accountable when they see me mess up but I'm going through such a battle that sometimes my flesh wins and I fall so hard and do something so wrong that it would be so much easier to give up and just lay there and I do that's the problem till I go some where like Saturday nights or Wednesday night to kind of get a refill and get back up.I don't know how to further my journey but i need to find a good mentor that will one on one with me and help me or something of that sort.I am so confused.Please respond with any advise or comments I really need some help

Be bold

Well I'm just gonna go into a little bit of whats been going on in life. Well in October is when i received my salvation. It was the best experience in my life.Well ever since then I've kind of been weaving on and of the path where god wants me to be. But i still try to maintain quiet time with him and a good prayer life. But ever since I received my salvation one of the biggest things i pray about is him giving me the courage and putting it on My mind to stand up and be bold in school and where ever else he call for me to go and say something. But i never could muster up the courage to say something. But i kept on praying for it and last night i went to a Wednesday night service and they had an alter call so I went down and prayed once more father plz lift me up and give me the courage to be bold and stand up for what i believe. So this morning i get up and go to take a shower and right in the middle of my shower he drops it on me like a ton of bricks. He calls out to stand be bold and starts putting in my mind all the ways i can go out and share the way i feel with someone. And i remember one of my good Friends Jim Hyatt had gave me a book called share Jesus with out fear so i go and grab this book i open it up start reading a little bit. Well i eventually made my way to the kitchen where my dad normally leaves me a note and some scripture to read. I get to reading his not and it starts giving me verses about being bold and i hadn't said any thing to him about the night before. Right then and there i knew what i had to do so i grabbed my book and took of to school and tryed my best to do what god asked me to. But i just wanted to share this with you cause its just another testimony to the glory of our god.

Well this is my first entry so im not going to deep. I just wanted to change the world so bad that i forgot i had to start somewhere. So this is where im going to start iv'e kind of started in school tryin to at least. But there are just so many people you can reach through the web. So yea im Mason and welcome to my blog. I hope god can use me in a way to help you.

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god bless